history...

Some people believe that without history, our lives amount to nothing. At some point we all have to choose: do we fall back on what we know, or do we step forward to something new? It's hard not to be haunted by our past. Our history is what shapes us... what guides us. Our history resurfaces time after time after time. So we have to remember sometimes the most important history is the history we’re making today.
Sometimes people will try to re-write their own histories and we can ignore it all we want, but our history eventually always comes back to haunt us.

So, You wanna know why I'm so unfocused? So ordinary? You wanna know what happened to me? You! You happened to me and i cant forget it.. I'm trying to build up my self again but it's hard, you took away my self esteem but i will show you that i can be more the ordinary.